But it's not what I blog about ...my opinion. » don't eat the paint

I can’t even remember when I started thinking about this post, my son’s sleep has gone from crappy to worse and while I get tired easily the late nights are actually pretty stimulating creatively for me. I think best in a dark room at 3am waiting for my son to fall back asleep while his sibling to be does flips in my uterus.  So I deal. It was on one of thee nights that I started thinking about blogging. For many people blogging is all about throwing oneself out there saying “take it or leave it world” and pressing publish.

That’s not true for me at all.

Many of my favorite blogs are just that, personal blogs written by writers that have talent oozing from their pores, the ability to write about complex issues in a consice way with little apparent effort and still make me cry reading it. That’s not me. I blog about glue and paper, about kids books and how to teach letters and basic concepts with creativity and play. I don’t blog about me, even here I don’t really. I am concious to keep things to myself, to maybe share as much as I would have with parents when I was teaching. It’s genuine, it’s me but it’s me for public consumption. It’s me but it’s not necessairly my opinions.

I am afraid to open up like that. I will share my experiences as a parent, I will share my frustration about a messy bathroom or about how much I loathe being pregnant but ask me to share deep rooted opinions about hot button issues  and I’ll clam up. I don’t want to piss anyone off.  I worry that I have worked too hard to build up my main blog , and it’s readership, to worry about risking it by throwing myself into boxes, labeling myself one thing or another politically, even though in real life I proudly say ” I am this, or I am against that.”

Something I have discovered about meeting people who blog as well as meeting people from message board communities is that many are quiet and reserved in person and very outspoken online. I am the opposite. I am pretty outgoing, never shy to share my thoughts, opinions or reasons for them - but my life online seems to have quieted my opinions, it hasn’t changed them , just shushed them to a whisper.

So I’ll blog about letter of the week, how to teach colors to your toddler and donate time and  money to the political causes that make me wish I could vote in the country I live in, whatever they may be.

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