Yes, it’s true, I’m going to BlogHer this summer in New York City. I’m excited to be going as part of the EverythingMom team. I’m so excited!
Uh, and so completely freaked out!
BlogHer’s like months away and I’m already sweating. I loved reading everyone’s posts last year about BlogHer’09. Once tickets for this year’s event were announced many people started buying them. I just wasn’t sure if it was for me. I even wrote about my uncertainty. But now, less than a year later, I’m actually going. Me. Quiet, unassuming, likes to hind behind her computer screen, me.
The event sounds great and meeting some of the people I’ve only talked to or read about in cyberspace is going to be amazing, but I can’t help but be apprehensive. It’s like I”m starting high school again. I’ll be on the outside looking in at all the cool kids that spent summer camp together. I’ll be at the lunch table on my own feeling a little out of place. I know it seems silly, I’m a grown woman, self-employed, with a happy family life. I’m comfortable with who I am but still I can’t shake the whole ‘I hope they like me’ mentality. High school wasn’t the best time for me, but it was the time I made some of my longest lasting friendships. Perhaps there’s hope for me. I’m sure once BlogHer has come and gone I will miss it and be one of those buying the next year’s tickets. In the meantime, I’m going to practice not saying stupid things and work on my deep breathing exercises. I’ve even joined the EverythingMom BlogHer ‘10 group to try and connect with those who are planning on attending.
If you’re going too be sure to say ‘hi’. I’ll be the one hiding behind the palm tree at the back of the room.
